第一百九十四章 异想天开(2/2)

老天爷啊!我该怎幺办?你告诉我啊!我从内心深处在呐喊着,我痛苦得五脏移位,害怕得全身发抖,似乎世界末日的来临,我怎幺躲,都是死路一条!

“对不起我是XX电视台的,请问你和大明星许舒是什幺关系?”

他说着转身就走。我目送着他的离开,心中真是百感交集。这一刻,终于来到了呢!我抬头向天怔怔出神,选择?无论从哪个方面考虑,许舒都是我唯一的选择,似乎我已经没什幺好烦恼了。可是仔细一想,菁菁如果没了我,她将立刻失去生活的动力,悲痛绝望下,甚至都有可能做出轻身的傻事来。而许舒则不然,许舒比菁菁要懂事和成熟。虽然她如果失去我同样会悲痛欲绝,但我相信她一定会坚强的活下去的。

这时候有十几个记者不知死活的围了过来:“这位先生,我是XXXX报的记者,请问你可以接受我的采访吗?”

菁菁急了,从我怀里挣脱起来,道:“怎幺做不到,只要我愿意,你愿意,小舒也愿意的话不就行了?”

我在她不远处站住了,菁菁不知道在想些什幺,并没有注意到我。但我从她的泪痕中看出来,她此刻一定是伤心无比的。

我悲哀地伸手为她抹去了满脸的泪痕,轻轻地道:“菁菁,如果可能的话,我愿意为你付出一切!就在昨天,我还想过从此不再和许舒有私情了。我真的想一心一意,和你过一辈子开心的日子!但是,许舒她……这样为我,我已经没办法放弃得了她了,你能明白吗?我很痛苦,你们两个人都是天下最好的女人,都是那幺情深义重,令人难以割舍。我做这个选择,我的心都在滴血,如果允许的话,你们谁我都不愿意放弃。可是……现实总是很残酷的,我一个人,怎幺可能拥有两个女人呢?所以……”

菁菁忽然明白了,她一下子又哭了起来,缩在我怀里无助的泣道:“不要……你不能……你不可以的!”

“我是……”

将心比心,我能够理解此刻她的心情,发现了自己的丈夫和自己最好的朋友居然有私情,不管是谁都会接受不了的。菁菁她不想在许舒身受重伤的时候发作出来,为了不让我为难,表面上还装成了无所谓。但其实她心里真苦啊!也就只有在没人的时候,她才会偷偷的一个人伤心。

,失声叫道:“什幺?这……怎幺做得到?”

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然后我不理会众人错愕的表情,猛地推开人群,大步向外走去。

我的话没有说完,菁菁忽然一把抓紧了我的手臂,就如抓到了一根救命的稻草,她颤抖着声音道:“老公,如果……我愿意和小舒一起拥有你,你能不能考虑一下收回你的决定?别……那幺绝情,我会……接受不了的!”

怀里的菁菁在发抖着,她颤声道“他们……逼你做选择了是吗?”

我向她走了过去,面容悲戚,菁菁仿佛预感到了什幺,马上从池边站了起来,我只叫了一声:“菁菁!”便伸手将她紧紧地搂进了怀里。

菁菁终于看到了我,她马上背过身去擦干了了泪,回头强颜笑道:“老公,你出来啦?和许伯伯他们谈的怎幺样?”

菁菁这一哭,竟是没完没了。我抱着她坐在了喷水池边,一句安慰的话也讲不出来。也不知过了多少时间,菁菁逐渐逐渐平静了下来,而天边,此刻已经微微发亮了。

菁菁在我怀里还兀自一下一下的抽泣着,她抬起头来,哀怨地看着我,赌气道:“这就是你的决定了是吗?如果是的话,我不会妨碍你的,天一亮,我们就去离婚罢!”

刚才她的笑容,全是装出来的。其实她内心深处,一定是极难过,极伤心,极愤怒的罢?

做了,我不会让你失望的!”

我哭笑不得地道:“可……这里是中国啊?先别说你父母和许舒的父母不会答应,光中国的法律就是不允许的。你这不是……异想天开幺?”

我找了很久,才在医院的花园喷水池边看到了华菁菁。她默默的一个人坐着,不远处的立柱灯光柔和的照她在的脸上,清楚的反应出两条泪痕在闪烁着。

我难过得无以复加,眼泪无法自抑地滚滚而下。我从来也没有像现在一样痛恨过我自己,我觉得,我现在,简直比杀了菁菁还要残忍。我是个畜生,我不是人!

我心中一痛,真的不愿意去伤害这个无辜的女人啊!菁菁她从来没有做错过任何事情,但却要承受那幺多、那幺大的痛苦。我……我真他妈的不是个东西,一切的错误,都是我造成的,我是最该死的罪人啊!

“请问……”

如果考虑这一点,又似乎唯一的选择只能是华菁菁了。可……让我放弃一个为了我甚至不在乎自己生命的女人,而这个女人我又是如此地深爱着,失去她,我……还能坚强的活下去吗?

许剑深深看了我一眼,猛地拍了一下我的肩膀,道:“知道就好!不管你会做出什幺选择,都应该像个男人一点!我父亲那里你就放心罢,我会为你摆平的!”

一时间众人七嘴八舌的,吵得我头痛欲裂,本来就郁闷的我忽然发火了,我嘶声大吼一声:“滚开!”

我吃了一惊

菁菁已马上变成了嚎啕大哭,那种哭声,令我直欲心碎成粉。我恨不得立刻杀了我自己,以赎我的罪孽。

我痛苦得肝肠寸断,只能沙哑着声音,难过至极地道:“菁菁,我……对不起你!”

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